August 5th, 2014

love - i believe

In which sleep is for suckers

I ache if I sleep too long. I think my body gets sick of it. That and I need a new mattress. Like for reals. (I should really stop using that phrase.) I have started this regime (which I am not awesome at keeping yet) of sleeping in three-hour increments. I come home from work, eat and watch an episode or two of Seinfeld, fall asleep around 8, set my alarm clock for 11, and then pass out again around 3 or 3:30am. It sounds bananas to people who love nothing more than to sleep, but I have never been normal when it comes to sleeping patterns.
This is the first time that I have set up a "schedule" for sleeping though, but it works better than the alternative.

If I come home and try to stay awake until a "normal" bedtime hour, like 11 or midnight, I am drained and cannot seem to muster the energy to do anything, not even my fun activities. And usually, I end up passing out while sitting up around nine or so with the lights and television on. I wake up groggy about five or six times throughout the night and never have the energy to get up and turn everything off, so I wake up around seven feeling like shit because I didn't get any real rest. At least with this "schedule" I am making sure to put myself to bed properly by turning off lights and laying all the way down with pillows and covers. It helps.

It is currently 5:30 in the morning, so I am still not perfect at it, but I am working on it. And I like the pattern a lot more because I have always been a night-owl and now have more energy in those hours after my first napping installment to do things. Watch things on the DVR, read, play around in my RP world, plop around on the internet, etc.

Also, the world is so very quiet during this time. There is a stillness in the air that only ever occurs after the witching hour. Peaceful and lovely and a bittersweet wake in honor of the day gone by.

Remember to love.